heeey
i just checked your message, it was a really long letter but i did like it.
and what you said is totally true, I try not to be so pessimistic..its all about the mindset. there's a Hindi word that i like, it is "Shanti" which means 'slowly'. Indian people always say "shanti, shanti". I feel a peace in that word. now im in korea, and the fact is making me so crazy sometims. here its so busy and always so competitive. I miss that 'shanti shanti'. sometimes i think that maybe im not so suitable to be in korea, maybe if i had lived in somewhere else, my life would be nicer. i dont know maybe im just so unrealistic.
everything is so confusing right now. i dont know what im doing now, and for what? i dont know what im expecting for , the only thing is that when im studying i dont need to think about anything. . and plus if i make that goal come true, my life probably would go easier. this comfort me. i'll just work in the very safe place. then i can finally start to look for the things i want. like traveling and learning dancing something like that.
you think this is so crazy? i think so. but i have no choice, i dont want another job interview. I dont want to go through the failing experiences. just for the moment studying is the most easy choice for me. and everytime i get tired of studying, i imagine the day i go abroad for traveling. sometimes i even imagine the day i meet you in Jolibee. ;) so the first step for now is studying hard, and pass the exam.
I somehow wanted to explain about this my suck situation, because i know that for you this is not so easy to understand. but if you dont, also doesnt matter. being little bit crazy its not a big deal. sometimes it can be even more fun.
omg i dont know what im saying. and its already 3.20 in the morning.
your serious insomia is so contagious. coz mine was not so serious!!
I dont want to go to the hospital today.